I've been doing this for so long but idk I really just wanna drop all this well not really but I really wanna marry and move and just relax yk? I just want all my attention on my lover but I have no lover and idk heavy tanks military stuff is giting boring and ik what your going to say "find something else " but nothings interesting enymore I just want to git marryed every time I think about giting marryed it just makes me sad cus ik it's years or Decades away .... :(